I AM

kevin altiveros javier
kheijhei, kj, kaje
kevs, kuya
male
17
april 13,1991
lunatic arian
second child
left-handed
activist
pinoy!
feminist
conservative
non-conformist
malatean, mascian, isko
magnoid, fordie, dugyot, albert
blockI-2 community nutrition
loves blue as well as books
wants to be a doctor
neurology/ ortho-spine
doctor to the barrios
"make a change"


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angelo crisanto
thea marie
jay-v james
miguel cristobal

leslie anne
philippe ronel
carlos miguel
beatriz cecilia

masaki
iric kevin
pauline anne
marie anne pauline

niño joseph
jason mari
ellaine
pauline gidget

christine minnelle
ralph anthony
nephele fabiola
miguel
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History

February 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
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October 2007
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January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
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May 2008
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July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008

Credits

CONSPIRE.AFFAIR

1 Cor: 13 4-8

Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous nor conceited nor proud. Love is not rude, Love is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, Love does not keep record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are languages, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

PRAYER

one thing i ask
to dwell in the house of the Lord
all my days
to gaze on His goodness
and walk in His ways
He will shelter me,
He will be my strength
in the triumph that He brings me
i can hold me head high
in His house i shall lift up my voice
i will sing, i will praise the Lord

Music

bye bye

MIRROR

I am Navy Blue
I'm a true adventurer. I constantly find myself drawn to new experiences, people, and places. Sometimes I feel quite scattered and bored. If something exciting isn't going on, I feel a bit lost.
What Color Blue Are You?


I am Rouge Red
Of all the reds, I am the most energetic and vibrant. I never need to recharge, and in fact, I often recharge others. Gutsy and brave, I've never let my fears stop me from doing anything. I figure that life is all about experiences, and I'll always take that leap of faith.
What Color Red Are You?


I am Emerald Green
Deep and mysterious, it often seems like no one truly gets me. Inside, I am very emotional and moody - though I don't let it show. People usually have a strong reaction to me... profound love or deep hate. But I can even get those who hate me to come around. There's something naturally harmonious about me.
What Color Green Are You?


I am Iris
I am an interesting blend of fun and wisdom. I definitely make people think about themselves and their place in the world. But they'll have fun doing it. I definitely epitomize laughter therapy. I am a very enriching and entertaining friend!
What Color Purple Are You?


I am Midnight
I am more than a little eccentric, and I'm apt to keep very unusual habits. Whether I'm a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - I like to experiment with my lifestyle. Expressing my individuality is important to me, and I often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and my place in it. I enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean I'm a hermit. I also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.
What Time Of Day Are You?


I Am Lightning
Beautiful yet dangerous
People will stop and watch me when I appear
Even though I'm capable of random violence

I am best known for: my power

My dominant state: performing

What Type of Weather Are You?


I Am Yang
Masculine
Creative, Angry, Spring, Summer, Morning
Sun, Space, Active, Wood, Chocolate(actually, i hate chocolates; i prefer salty foods)
Are You Yin or Yang?


I Have a Melancholic Temperament
Introspective and reflective, I think about everything and anything. I am a soft-hearted daydreamer. I long for my ideal life. I love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for me. Given enough time alone, it's easy for me to find inner peace. I tend to be spiritual, having found my own meaning of life. Wise and patient, I can help people through difficult times. At my worst, I brood and sulk. My negative thoughts can trap me. I am reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.(depende sa tao yun.) I tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.(tama!)
What Temperment Are You?


I also have a Choleric Temperament
I am a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things. Unsatisfied by the ordinary, I am reaching for an epic, extraordinary life. I want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation. I posses a sharp and keen intellect. My mind is my primary weapon. Strong willed, nothing can keep me down. My energy can break down any wall. I'm an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives me an intoxicating power over others. At your worst, I am a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.(medyo) Stubborn and opinionated and a bit of a misanthrope.
What Temperment Are You?


My EQ is 133
50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.
What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?


My Brain is Blue
Of all the brain types, mine is the most mellow.
I tend to be in a meditative state most of the time. I don't try to think away my troubles.
My thoughts are realistic, fresh, and honest. I truly see things as how they are.

I tend to spend a lot of time thinking about my friends, my surroundings, and my life.
What Color Is Your Brain?


I am 50% Left Brained, 50% Right Brained
The left side of the brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others(true!). If you're left brained, you are likely good at math(?) and logic. The left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.(sometimes)

The right side of the brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way(true!). If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing(never!) and art. The right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports(sports?!).

actually, i am left-handed... so i'm not sure about the results... i think i'm more of right brained... anyway... i answered the questions fairly... so i accept the results...
Are You Right or Left Brained?


I Am An ESTJ
The Guardian I'm a natural leader and quick, logical decision maker. Goals are important in my life, and I take many steps to acheive them. I enjoy interacting with others, mostly through work related activities. My high energy level means I am great at getting things done!(huh?!?) In love, I tend to bring stability to relationships. I feel comfortable being in charge, and I enjoy being a provider. At work, I take charge. I thrive in structured environments and don't mind enforcing the rules. I would make a great teacher, judge, or police detective. How I see myself: Realistic, stable, and pragmatic(sabi ng test to noh!) When other people don't get me, they see me as: Rigid, bound to rules, and a bad listener(?)
What's Your Personality Type?


I Have A Type A- Personality
I am one of the most balanced people around Motivated and focused, I am good at getting what I want I rule at success, but success doesn't rule me. When it's playtime, I really know how to kick back Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something I love! I live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds
Do You Have a Type A Personality?


I am 81% Feminist
I am a total feminist. This doesn't mean I'm a man hater (in fact, I am a man). I just think that men and women should be treated equally. It's a simple idea but somehow complicated for the world to put into action.
Are You a Feminist?


My Intrapersonal Intelligence Score: 86%
My Intrapersonal Intelligence is Very High(?!?)

I've spent a lot of time introspecting, and it's really paid off.
I am comfortable with who I am, and I have a life philosophy that I am happy to live by.
And I'm always re-evaluating what I believe. Because I learn something new about myself each day! (ano 'to, joke?!?)
How Does Your Intrapersonal Intelligence Rate?


I Am Internal - Realist - Empowered
I feel my life is controlled internally.
If I want something, I make it happen.
I don't wait around for things to go my way.
I value my independence and don't like others to have control.

I'm a realist when it comes to luck.
I don't attribute everything to luck, but I do know some things are random.
I don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you...
But I do my best(?) to try to make my own luck.

I have a good deal of power, but I also know the pecking order.
I realize that working the system does get me further.
I know who to defer to and who to control.
When it comes to the game of life, I play things flawlessly.(huh?!?)
The Three Dimension Luck and Power Test


Your Personality Cluster is Extraverted Sensing
I am: A true admirer of beauty and art Someone who seeks out variety and adventure Not interested in status or material wealth Able to act wisely without stopping to think
What's Your Personality Cluster?


I Am 82% Non Conformist
I'm incredibly strange. And a weirdness like mine takes skill to cultivate!
No one really understands me. And i'm cool with that(?). I just hope I never have to understand them!
Are You a Nonconformist?


My Political Profile:
Overall: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal
Social Issues: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal
Personal Responsibility: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal
Fiscal Issues: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal
Ethics: 75% Conservative, 25% Liberal
Defense and Crime: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal
How Liberal Or Conservative Are You?


You Are The Guru
You are a naturally good counselor. You are inspiring, encouraging, and compassionate.
You are eager to help everyone who crosses your path, even those who don't want to be helped.

You are a natural healer. People feel at peace when they are with you.
You are so good for people, in fact, that they go through withdrawal once you're gone.

You quietly do your own thing, without openly resisting. You secretly try to fix every problem.
Your biggest regret is not being able to help as many people as you'd like.
What Role Do You Play?
I Should Get a MD (Doctor of Medicine)
I'm both compassionate and brilliant - a rare combination. I was born to be a doctor.(according to the results of this test. haha..)
What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

~naiibang karanasan -isang balbalang post

Friday, October 24, 2008

one time big time to.. rumble na ng mga thoughts! game...

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san ko ba sisimulan? ayun, kahapon... kasi... ndi ko pa nalalakad yung permit ko para sa Exam sa chem 40... so ang plano, sasabay ako kina mama... umaga yun umaalis ng bahay.. mga 6 ng umaga... sa National Housing Authority kasi yun nagtatrabaho... so ayun... nagising ako nung umaga.. pero dahil sa sobrang hilo dahil kulang sa tulog... natulog ako ulit but no! paggising ko, late na.. 9 am na.. at guess what?!? iniwan lang naman ako ni mama... magaling, magaling magaling... anyway.. tumunganga muna ako, inisip kung ano yung gagawin ko, kung mag-eexam pa ba ako or what...

habang nagdedesisyon, naligo na ako, kumain... nilabhan yung uniform ni Freedom Rose (yung bunso kong kapatid) nagpalaba kasi ng PE uniform... keri lang... so ayun, nanuod pa ako ng tv... mantakin mo lang naman yun... hehe... so go.. umalis na ako ng bahay at iniwan ang kuya kong naglalaba ng sarili niyang damit... so byahe na ako papuntang UP...

then naglakad ako papuntang terminal ng trike.. tapos ibinababa ako sa labasan na, as in sa highway na.. go lang... tapos nagbayad ako ng 50... tapos nagtanng kung may barya ako, but no! wala nga... sabi pa niya... kahit tigpipiso... sabi ko, kulang po eh... pero sabi niya, dos lang! estudyante ka lang ba! (aba, galit si kuya... utot mo! adik! wag kitang bayaran dyan eh... at nila-lang ang estudyante) ang sagot ko?!? heto "(kalmado..) ah ganun po ba? sorry naman, heto po.." haha... ang utot... nyway, wala ako sa mood makipagtalastasan...

so ayun, aftern nun sumakay ako sa jeep, papuntang baclaran... masaya naman, nakapag-isipisip naraman ako tungkol sa mga lagi kong iniisip... haha... pero may isyu sa loob ng jeep na ito... nung nasa may zapote na kami... may sumakay na nilalang.. sa tingin ko mga teenager na rin, early teen... ang isyu? ndi ko maintindihan kung lalaki o babae ang nilalang na ito.. mukha siyang lalaki, pero mukhang tibo.. haha... ayun.. pink kasi yung blouse este polo shirt niya.. (hehe..) tapos go, sige.. lalaki to... may hikaw pa sa kaliwang tenga... go lang.. after few minutes.. waha! ewan... bakit parang may bra cya?!? i mean, yung sa likod.. yung strap.. (pake ko naman sa dibdib niya...) wahaha.. natawa naman ako.. dilaw pa yung suot niya... haha... nakakatawa... ang nipis kasi ng pink niyang polo shirt.. haha... gayunman... natawa na lang ako kasi para akong timang, pati ibang nilalang pinakikialaman ko.. haha...

pagdating ko sa baclaran, sumakay akop ng MRT LRT jeep, then sumakay ng MRT... sa MRT, ayun naman ang adventure dun.. nung nasa baba na ako na taft station, nasa relo nila (yung digital at usual) na 3:00 so nagdasal naman ako na sana umabot pa ako... crap tlga.... then madali sa pagpasok then ayun... nakaupo kasi ako... ang matindi dun, dahil siksikan sa magallanes pa lang... si kuyang nasa harap ko.. buhay ang tyan.. haha... idutdot mo pa kuya yang bumubulwak mong tyan.. haha.... adik... haha.. buti nakababa pa ako ng buhay sa quezon ave... then, isang malaking kabobohan... napansin ko rin sa ibang stations plus sa relo ng mga kasama ko sa MRT na 1:00 pa lang ng hapon.. adik tlga.. nayari ako ng relo sa taft... ayun, tapos mabilisang lakad papuntang terminal sa kanto sa baba.. (trip ko lang magmadali) sumakay ng jeep at dumeretso sa CHE.

pagpunta kong CHE, ayun na.. haha... dahil lukot ang nauna ko nang nakuhang permit, kumuha na lang ako kay ate lucky pero but no! wal sya sa department... haha.. ate lucky, nagliliwaliw naraman.. sa paghihintay kay ate lucky, si maám T ang nakita ko.. haha.. ang ganda... tapos ayun.. nasermonan ako.. pero ok lang.. haha.. nachallenge ako sa sinabi niya... pano, sabi niya.. "o kevin! sinong hinhintay mo? si lucky?" sabi ko naman, "opo..." sabi naman niya... "ok.. nandyan lang yun sa tabi-tabi... " then.. ako naman.. "sige po, salamat po..."
ayun.. ang sumunod na conversation...
ma'am t: "o, nakita mo naba yung grade mo?"
K: opo (sabay ngiti na ewan..)
M: dismayado ako sa yo, disappointed talaga ako...
K: ma'am ang daming nangyari eh, personal issues
M: " sayang, di naalagaan, nagbabasa ka naman nung simula eh, di lang namaintain..."
K: maám personal issues eh, bawi na lang po sa 15...
M: " o sya.."

at ayun, nagpaalam na ako.. haha.. ano ko?!? apple of her eyes?!? haha.. lagot na ako.. nung FN 10 pa yun ganun... haha... magpapatuloy na ata yun hanggang paggraduate ko.. haha.. pressure... gayunman... inilakad ko na yung permit ko... at grabe, sa buong karanasan ko sa UP, ito ang pinakamabilis kong transaction! haha.. wala pang ten minutes mula nung nakuha ko yung form, napirmahan na... haha.,.. buti walang ibang gumagawa ng pila...

ayun, tumambay muna ako... haha.. unang tambay ko ata yun bilang mem... so sinolo ko naman ang tambayan.. ang antisocial ko tlga.. haha.. sadyang nataon lang na walang tao sa tambayan... tapos ayun na, nagbasa ako.. may mga natutuwa't sem break na, naeexcite sa PGH, at nagpapakasenti (aww, we love you! haha...) haha... (nga pala, ang KALAT ng tambayan... kinailangan pa tuloy magwalis)
tapos ipinasa ko yung form ko sa kem, pinapasok pa ako sa lob ng kwarto instead na sa window lang yung transaction... haha.. importante ata ako nung araw na yun... haha... tipong dahil nasa loob ako, nakita ko pang nagmamakaawa ang isang estudyante kay quebuyen (tama ba spelling ko?!?) na ipasa na cya... haiz.. ang issue nila? ndi iginuhit yung structure ng Ethanol.. kawawa naman cya sabi ko sa sarili ko... ethanol ang nagdikta ng kapalaran niya, siguro isinusumpa na niya lahat ng ethanol sa mundo.. haiz... (at tlgang nakinig ako sa usapan nila?!?) --> ang tagal kasi nung sinabi nilang hntayin ko eh.. pero sumuko rin sila, kasi ndi naman kailangan ng bayad, may pirma naman from the college... ayun.. (kahit nakiusosyo pa si Dr. Solis...)

so ayun, grabeh... uwi naman ako... sumabay na ako sa mama ko pauwi, since malapit lang din mana ang NHA sa UP. atsaka gusto kong makalibra ng pamasahe pauwi.. haha... tapos grabe.. ang ewan ng tatay ko.. nagpadala ng bulaklak sa nanay ko.. haha.. L. Carlos pa ang pinadala... burgesya! haha... tapos tumawag pa raw... tinanong kung nakuha na ni mama yung bulaklak... then tinanng niya nanay ko, anng nararamdaman mo? at ang bonggang sagot ng naany ko "ano bagn dapat kong maramdaman?!? ibigay mo yan kay.... haha..." tawanan lang kami ng nanay ko... (ok, yung mga kinuwentuhan ko lang tungkol sa buhay ko ang nakarelate) basta ayun.. haha.. bastos din nanay ko eh.. haha.. pero may point cya, kung pinera na lang, eh di sna naidagdag yun sa tuition namin ni freedom... L. Carlos kaya yun.. ang mahal nun noh... haha.... ang sabi ko nga sa mama ko, pilasin niya, tapos itapon sa tubig.. parang yung kabit sa "my husbands woman" pero ayaw niya... baliw daw kasi yun.. haha...

tapos ayun, umuwi na kami.. nakasabay pa namin sa jeep yung kairingan kong kaopesina ni mama.. haha... wala lang, at nilibre kami ng pamasahe...

ayun, umuwi na kami sakay ng MRt, sa special are kami sumakay.. (child pa naman ako according sa child welfare code, 17 yrs old pa lang ako... at may scoliosis ako..) ayun, first time kong makitang punong puno ang side na yun ng train... grabe, pano pa kaya sa lugar ng mga lalaki? haha...

then kanina...

grabe! 6 na nung nakaalis ako.. haha.. buti ndi ako sumaby kina mama paalis.. nauna na ako.. pagdating ko sa UP.. maaga pa.. so aral pa.. nagpaka late ako... nagreview pa kami ni ate lyn sa may tabi ni ate guard.. haha.. 8-10 ang exam pero 8:15 na kami umakyat.. haha.. ang saya nga eh.. parang ewan lang.... ayun.. haha... ndi ko matanggap yung exam.. ndi ko maintindihan kung pinagpawisan ako dahil mahirap, o sadyang wala akong alam, o sadyang yung moment na yun ang magdidikta ng kapalaran ko o lahat yun.. haiz.. ang dami kong hula.. pero naensure ko naman yung required number ng sagot para pumasa.. haha...

at ang twist dun.. nung punasa ko na yung papel ko kay maám... tinawag niya ako.. sabi niya sandali lang, hntayin ko raw cya.. grabe! as in grabe! first time ginawa sa akin yun.. biglaang nagcheck sa harap ko si ma'am ng blue book.. at bluebook ko yun! Lord! mga ilang segundo rin akong ndi huminga.. waaah!!!! haha.. thumbs up na lang yung gnawa niya after magbilang... at ayun.. walang tanong-tanong, nagexhale ako ng sobrang lakas at tagal.. haha... ngumiti lang ako.. haha.. at in fairness, ningitian niya ako.. haha... (tama si kuya Enrik, kaya yun.. haha...) grbae.. si kuya enrik, nung 40 niya, 110 daw ang kailangan niyang points sa finals para mag 3.. ako.. 110 ang kailangan ko sa finals para mag 4.. haha... grabe... thank GOD! haha... (at tlgang halos ibulgar ko na yung prefinal grade ko...) pero ayun.. kasi, dapat pumapasok sa klase.. haha.. natutulog ng maaga para nagigising ng maaga... haha... okie.. natuto na ako.. for that... maaga akong gigisng next sem.. kahit 7:30 ang class ko, 6 pa lang nasa CHE na ako.. haha... buhay adik...
ayun, pagkatapos, pumunta kaming che.. haha... ayun ,chinismiss si ma'am del mundo then si maám T naman.. haha.. nagpatamaan naraman ata ako... haha..

M: "maganda yan ng may ma-squeeze ako sa inyo"
Ate Helene: "maám wala na kayong massquezze sa akin"
M: "meron naman"
M: "sadyang may mga taong nasisimulang ko nang masquezze tapos biglang nawala" (sabay tingin sa akin...)

maganda tlaga yan.. ako ata yun! di ko maintindihan kung ako ba yun, yung kasama ko o kung sino. haha.. pero napahamak kasi ako nung latter part ng sem due to personal issues... pero at least ayos na kahit papaano yung issues na yun.. bawi na lang next sem.. buti nalang pumasa ako kahit ni minsan ndi ako nnag-aral o nagbasa man lang ng matino for any long exam sa FN 14 Thank GOD pa rin... (pero nakapanghihinayang.. feeling ko kaya kong itaas pa kung nagbabasa ako...)

haha.. isyu pa yung pera kanina.. muntik akong ndi makauwi.. buti na lang.. pumasok pala ang mama ko at may bente pa ako.. akala ko kasi ndi sya pumasok kaya mega hanap na ako na mauutangan... haha..

ayun, kumain kaming chocokiss kanina, isang event na bhirang maganap... grabe... haha.. once in a blue moon.. haha... kaya ayun.. nabusog kami..

at bago matapos ang araw na ito... bongga talaga.. haha.. bago kami umuwi, kami ay dumaan pa sa mob sa welcome rotonda... haha... bilang protesta sa illegal na pagdakip at pagsampa ng mga gawa-gawang kaso laban kay atty. Remigio Saladero Jr. ayun, maayos namang natapos yung event.

then umuwi na kami, nanood ng tv, kumain, hanggang sa nandito ako ngayon, nagtatype ng post na ito...

ang daming nangyari nitong huling dalawang linggo.. ang utot.. kasi ndi naman pangkaraniwan yung ilan dun haha... nyway, baka may something sa linggong ito o sa susunod na linggo...

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" sa paghahanap ng kaibigan... nagmukha ka lang tanga, kasi ang specific ng taong hinahanap mo bilang kaibigan... pero ang totoo, maliban sa mga nabanggit mo nang kaibigan noon, may iilan pa pala sa paligid mo, ndi mo lang pinapansin.... madalas, kung sino pa yung mukhang pangkaraniwan, sila pa yung tunay na nakaalaalay... hndi mo lang alam ang iniisip, pero ang totoo, ikaw lang at kapakanan mo ang iniisip. mahal ka nun. kapatid na ang turing sa yo nun. timang ka lang tlaga, ang manhid mo kasi. " -napagtanto ko lang, sdyang gnawa ko lang na mo instead na ko yung mga pronoun (para may tama sa sino mang nagbabasa...)

/b a c k. t o. t o p.

posted at 10:56 AM