I AM

kevin altiveros javier
kheijhei, kj, kaje
kevs, kuya
male
17
april 13,1991
lunatic arian
second child
left-handed
activist
pinoy!
feminist
conservative
non-conformist
malatean, mascian, isko
magnoid, fordie, dugyot, albert
blockI-2 community nutrition
loves blue as well as books
wants to be a doctor
neurology/ ortho-spine
doctor to the barrios
"make a change"


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Friends

angelo crisanto
thea marie
jay-v james
miguel cristobal

leslie anne
philippe ronel
carlos miguel
beatriz cecilia

masaki
iric kevin
pauline anne
marie anne pauline

niño joseph
jason mari
ellaine
pauline gidget

christine minnelle
ralph anthony
nephele fabiola
miguel
royce margaux
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History

February 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008

Credits

CONSPIRE.AFFAIR

1 Cor: 13 4-8

Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous nor conceited nor proud. Love is not rude, Love is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, Love does not keep record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are languages, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

PRAYER

one thing i ask
to dwell in the house of the Lord
all my days
to gaze on His goodness
and walk in His ways
He will shelter me,
He will be my strength
in the triumph that He brings me
i can hold me head high
in His house i shall lift up my voice
i will sing, i will praise the Lord

Music

bye bye

MIRROR

I am Navy Blue
I'm a true adventurer. I constantly find myself drawn to new experiences, people, and places. Sometimes I feel quite scattered and bored. If something exciting isn't going on, I feel a bit lost.
What Color Blue Are You?


I am Rouge Red
Of all the reds, I am the most energetic and vibrant. I never need to recharge, and in fact, I often recharge others. Gutsy and brave, I've never let my fears stop me from doing anything. I figure that life is all about experiences, and I'll always take that leap of faith.
What Color Red Are You?


I am Emerald Green
Deep and mysterious, it often seems like no one truly gets me. Inside, I am very emotional and moody - though I don't let it show. People usually have a strong reaction to me... profound love or deep hate. But I can even get those who hate me to come around. There's something naturally harmonious about me.
What Color Green Are You?


I am Iris
I am an interesting blend of fun and wisdom. I definitely make people think about themselves and their place in the world. But they'll have fun doing it. I definitely epitomize laughter therapy. I am a very enriching and entertaining friend!
What Color Purple Are You?


I am Midnight
I am more than a little eccentric, and I'm apt to keep very unusual habits. Whether I'm a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - I like to experiment with my lifestyle. Expressing my individuality is important to me, and I often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and my place in it. I enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean I'm a hermit. I also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.
What Time Of Day Are You?


I Am Lightning
Beautiful yet dangerous
People will stop and watch me when I appear
Even though I'm capable of random violence

I am best known for: my power

My dominant state: performing

What Type of Weather Are You?


I Am Yang
Masculine
Creative, Angry, Spring, Summer, Morning
Sun, Space, Active, Wood, Chocolate(actually, i hate chocolates; i prefer salty foods)
Are You Yin or Yang?


I Have a Melancholic Temperament
Introspective and reflective, I think about everything and anything. I am a soft-hearted daydreamer. I long for my ideal life. I love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for me. Given enough time alone, it's easy for me to find inner peace. I tend to be spiritual, having found my own meaning of life. Wise and patient, I can help people through difficult times. At my worst, I brood and sulk. My negative thoughts can trap me. I am reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.(depende sa tao yun.) I tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.(tama!)
What Temperment Are You?


I also have a Choleric Temperament
I am a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things. Unsatisfied by the ordinary, I am reaching for an epic, extraordinary life. I want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation. I posses a sharp and keen intellect. My mind is my primary weapon. Strong willed, nothing can keep me down. My energy can break down any wall. I'm an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives me an intoxicating power over others. At your worst, I am a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.(medyo) Stubborn and opinionated and a bit of a misanthrope.
What Temperment Are You?


My EQ is 133
50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.
What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?


My Brain is Blue
Of all the brain types, mine is the most mellow.
I tend to be in a meditative state most of the time. I don't try to think away my troubles.
My thoughts are realistic, fresh, and honest. I truly see things as how they are.

I tend to spend a lot of time thinking about my friends, my surroundings, and my life.
What Color Is Your Brain?


I am 50% Left Brained, 50% Right Brained
The left side of the brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others(true!). If you're left brained, you are likely good at math(?) and logic. The left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.(sometimes)

The right side of the brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way(true!). If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing(never!) and art. The right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports(sports?!).

actually, i am left-handed... so i'm not sure about the results... i think i'm more of right brained... anyway... i answered the questions fairly... so i accept the results...
Are You Right or Left Brained?


I Am An ESTJ
The Guardian I'm a natural leader and quick, logical decision maker. Goals are important in my life, and I take many steps to acheive them. I enjoy interacting with others, mostly through work related activities. My high energy level means I am great at getting things done!(huh?!?) In love, I tend to bring stability to relationships. I feel comfortable being in charge, and I enjoy being a provider. At work, I take charge. I thrive in structured environments and don't mind enforcing the rules. I would make a great teacher, judge, or police detective. How I see myself: Realistic, stable, and pragmatic(sabi ng test to noh!) When other people don't get me, they see me as: Rigid, bound to rules, and a bad listener(?)
What's Your Personality Type?


I Have A Type A- Personality
I am one of the most balanced people around Motivated and focused, I am good at getting what I want I rule at success, but success doesn't rule me. When it's playtime, I really know how to kick back Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something I love! I live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds
Do You Have a Type A Personality?


I am 81% Feminist
I am a total feminist. This doesn't mean I'm a man hater (in fact, I am a man). I just think that men and women should be treated equally. It's a simple idea but somehow complicated for the world to put into action.
Are You a Feminist?


My Intrapersonal Intelligence Score: 86%
My Intrapersonal Intelligence is Very High(?!?)

I've spent a lot of time introspecting, and it's really paid off.
I am comfortable with who I am, and I have a life philosophy that I am happy to live by.
And I'm always re-evaluating what I believe. Because I learn something new about myself each day! (ano 'to, joke?!?)
How Does Your Intrapersonal Intelligence Rate?


I Am Internal - Realist - Empowered
I feel my life is controlled internally.
If I want something, I make it happen.
I don't wait around for things to go my way.
I value my independence and don't like others to have control.

I'm a realist when it comes to luck.
I don't attribute everything to luck, but I do know some things are random.
I don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you...
But I do my best(?) to try to make my own luck.

I have a good deal of power, but I also know the pecking order.
I realize that working the system does get me further.
I know who to defer to and who to control.
When it comes to the game of life, I play things flawlessly.(huh?!?)
The Three Dimension Luck and Power Test


Your Personality Cluster is Extraverted Sensing
I am: A true admirer of beauty and art Someone who seeks out variety and adventure Not interested in status or material wealth Able to act wisely without stopping to think
What's Your Personality Cluster?


I Am 82% Non Conformist
I'm incredibly strange. And a weirdness like mine takes skill to cultivate!
No one really understands me. And i'm cool with that(?). I just hope I never have to understand them!
Are You a Nonconformist?


My Political Profile:
Overall: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal
Social Issues: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal
Personal Responsibility: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal
Fiscal Issues: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal
Ethics: 75% Conservative, 25% Liberal
Defense and Crime: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal
How Liberal Or Conservative Are You?


You Are The Guru
You are a naturally good counselor. You are inspiring, encouraging, and compassionate.
You are eager to help everyone who crosses your path, even those who don't want to be helped.

You are a natural healer. People feel at peace when they are with you.
You are so good for people, in fact, that they go through withdrawal once you're gone.

You quietly do your own thing, without openly resisting. You secretly try to fix every problem.
Your biggest regret is not being able to help as many people as you'd like.
What Role Do You Play?
I Should Get a MD (Doctor of Medicine)
I'm both compassionate and brilliant - a rare combination. I was born to be a doctor.(according to the results of this test. haha..)
What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

~sa iyo to.

Friday, April 25, 2008

sabi nila, ang mundo ay balanse. may mabuti, may masama. may magandang nangyayari sa buhay mo, may pangit na nangyayari sa buhay mo. tunay ngang sa mundong ito, lahat ay nabubuhay ngunit lahat din ay mamamatay. sa araw na ito ay ibinigay ko na ang lahat upang intindihin ka, lahat na ng uri ng paraang ginawa ko ay aking ginawa upang intindihin ang kaganapang ito. akala ko noon kaya mo akong tulungang kalimutan ang mga nangyari noon pero sadya yatang walang maitutulong ang tulad mo sa akin. ako nga siguro ang mali. ako ang talaga ang mali. mula sa araw na ito ay sisiguraduhin kong matatapos na ang lahat. sa araw na ito ay kakalimutan ko na ang lahat. gaya noon, nandito naraman ako, naglalakbay sa kawalan. hindi na yata ako natuto sa mga pagkakamali ko noong akoy bata pa, noong ang aking kaisipan ay tila nananatiling musmos at walang alam,; noong ang aking mundo ay tila perpekto at walang bahid ng kahit na anong kamalian, noong ang mundo ko ay hindi pa totoo.
nakatutuwang isipin na sa pagkakabuo ng aking pagkatao; mula sa isang taong kinatatakutan ng ilan dahil sa sukdulang kasamaan ng pag-uugali, sa sukdulang kasungitan at sa sukdulang pagtingin sa sarili ay nagawa kong ibigay ng buong buo ang aking sarili para sa ilang taong aking inaasahang magiging mabuti sa akin. ibinigay ko ng buong buong ang aking tiwala at pati na rin ang pag-asang ang sakit na ito ay aking mabibigyang solusyon. nilapitan ko siya, pinilit ko ang aking sariling magpakababa para lamang intindihin ang mga kaganapan sa aking kapaligiran. pinilit kong sisirin ang kailaliman ng nagbabagang dagat. pinilit kong lumunok.
nakatutuwang isipin na para lamang sa isang piraso ng bulaklak ay sinaksak ko ang aking sarili. hindi ko lamang minsanang itinarak ang patalim sa aking sarili, paulit-ulit ko itong ibinaon sa aking kalamnan upang lalo kong maintindihan ang lahat. nagawa kong dumilat. nagawa kong dumilat sa kabila ng mga agam-agam na ako rin ang mapapahamak sa huli. nagawa kong dumilat sa kabila ng walang katiyakang buhay, nagawa kong tumitig sa kabila ng pagdilim ng lahat.
muli kong binalikan ang gabing iyon, ang gabing nagkulong sa akin sa isang mundong hindi ko lubos na naiintindihan. sa ilang banda ay aking pinagsisisihan ang gabing iyon. nakalimutan kong huminga. nakalimutan kong ang bulaklak na aking tinaggap ay isang rosas na puno ng tinik. nalason ako ng pag-asang maari kong langhapin ang amoy na dulot nito. nasawi ako sa hindi mabilang na pagkakataon.
maari ngang sa una pa lamang ay wala na akong alam, na sa dahilan ding iyon, kahit anong aking pilit, kahit anong hirap ko sa paglangoy sa karagatan ng aking paglalakbay, ay hindi ko maiintindihan ang mga bagay na ninais kong intindihin. iba ang bulaklak na iyon. lubos na mailap.
masakit isipin na ang bulaklak na ito, bagaman bago pa sa aking pananaw, ay kailangan ko nang dalhin sa buwan. titignan ko na lamang ang kanyang mga alaala sa salaming tubig. ang aking pangakong binitiwan sa kanya at sa aking sarili ay ibubulong ko na lang sa hangin. nawa sa hanging ito ay kanyang maalala ang gabing iyon. tama nga ang mga bituin, sa gabing iyon ay mahuhulog ako sa isang pangako. pangakong ngayon ay kailangan ko nang kalimutan, pagkkakaibigang kailangan ko nang talikuran.
maglalaho ako hindi dahil hindi ko tanggap ang kapalaran ng bulaklak na minsan ko ring tinignan bilang isang kayamanan kundi dahil ako ay sumusuko na. oo, akoý sumusuko na. kung ito ay aabot hanggang sa dulo ng kailanman, mabuti pang ito ay aking kalimutan. mabuti pang tulad koý maglaho na rin ito sa mundong minsan ay parehas naming kinabilangan. nakakatakot isiping umuulit lamang ang aking mga pagkakamali, hindi ako natututo. gayunpaman, bago pa lumubha ang lahat, bago pa ang sarili ko ang aking pagpirapirasuhin para ibigay sa iba, ito ay aking nang pipigilan. kung ito pa ay totoong walang katapusan, mabuti pang ito ay akin nalamang kalimutan. nang sa gayun, ang lahat ng ito ay hindi ko na matandaan. nang sa gayun, ang sarili ko ang hindi mapahamak. masyado ko nang ibinigay ang aking sarili, tama na. panahon naman siguro upang ang aking sarili ang aking intindihin. mali na kung hanggang ngayon ay wala akong natutunan at ibibigay ko pa rin ang sarili para sa iba.
sa lahat nang kalituhan na aking dinanas, ang kanyang pagkalaho ang aking nakikitang gabay upang umayos ang aking buhay. mahirap, dahil ang bawat bulaklak ay tunay ngang makabuluhan, lahat nang kaibigan ay may halaga .
paalam na lamang ang aking masasabi salamat sa lahat ng naitulong mo sa akin. humihingi ako ng dispensa sa aking sinabi. nawaý sa ibang mundo, sa ibang panahon ay maging kaibigan kitang muli. patawad dahil hanggang ngayon, akoý humihiling na sana akoý iyong inintindi.
wala na akong magagawa upang ipilit pa ang aking nais. lubos na ang hanging sa aking mukhang nagsasabing kailanmaý hindi ko man lamang mahahawakan ang bulaklak na iyon. kailanmaý ang mundo natiý hindi na mag-iisa. paalam kaibigan. wala na, walang-wala na.

/b a c k. t o. t o p.

posted at 8:57 AM


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Tuesday, April 1, 2008

alam kong ang ipopost ko ngayon ay nakalagay na sa kanang bahagi ng aking blog at araw-araw na nakabalandra sa mga taong nagnanais na basahin ang mga nakasulat sa aking blog. gayunpaman, ninais kong ilagay ito sa mas magandang paraan. mula sa wikang ingles ay kinuha ko naman ang tagalog na bersyon nito. naniniwala akong ang post ko ngayon ay tiyak na mas makabuluhan kaysa sa ingles na katumbas nito.

"Ang pag-ibig ay mapaghinuhod, at magandang-loob; ang pag-ibig ay hindi nananaghil'; ang pag-ibig ay hindi nagmamapuri, hindi mapagpalalo. Hindi nag-uugaling mahalay, hindi hinahanap ang kanyang sarili, hindi nayayamot, hindi inaaluman ang masama. Hindi nagagalak sa kalikuan, kundi nakikigalak sa katotohanan. Lahat ay binabata, lahat ay pinaniniwalaan, lahat ay inaasahan, lahat ay tinitiis. Ang pag-ibig ay hindi nagkukulang kailan man; kahit maging mga hula ay mangatatapos; maging mga wika, ay titigil; maging kaalaman, ay mawawala. Sapagkat nangakakakilala tayo ng bahagya at nangangahula tayo ng bahagya; datapwa't kung dumating ang sakdal, ang bahagya ay matatapos." - 1 corinto 13: 4-10
wala lang, sana makatulong ito sa lahat. sa mga taong wala nang magawa sa buhay. nawaý maging sagot din ito sa ilang tao na naghaahnap ng kasagutan. sana ay makatulong ito. ^_^

/b a c k. t o. t o p.

posted at 1:57 AM